I had all kinds of ideas for good blog posts this week, but then I got “the call” yesterday. The call that has me heartbroken. As I was in the grocery store my cell phone rang – caller ID showed it was my best friend. I was looking forward to talking to her, as she had a 16 week prenatal check-up that afternoon and I was excited to hear how everything went. However, on the line was my best friend’s husband. He shared the news that I absolutely did not want to hear…The baby had passed away – most likely the day before. So as I held my precious baby (who is nearly 8 months old already) and picked out eggs… I sobbed.

I am a Christian, I am a pastor’s wife… but at times like these I have to ask why… Why would God take away this baby who was wanted so badly, who was loved so much already, who already has a brother/sister in heaven from a previous miscarriage. Why was everything fine just a few days before – how could this happen so quickly. Why would God give me 4 healthy children – I’m not any better of a mom than she is. Why does He allow such heartache & pain. (I know he has His reasons, and they are not for us to know right now…)

Please pray for H & J and their living children N & C. They have many hard days ahead as H births this precious baby later this week, and as they work through their grief. I am completely overcome with sadness, so I can’t even imagine the intensity of what they must be feeling.

In the meantime, I will put on my happy face, as to not ruin my 7 year old’s very first sleepover birthday party he is having tonight… Wish me luck – none of the 3 boys coming have ever slept over at someone’s house before!

Oh, and 4 more days until we leave for our month long trip! Things are just a bit busy around here!

Talk to you soon!
C-

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